Trusting God

It's been a while since I have posted to this blog.  Please forgive me.  God has been working in me to change me more from the inside-out.  I had been stagnant in life and my spiritual growth for too long.  I felt like there was a huge distance between me and God.  I just did not feel His presence like I once did.  Let me start off by saying that I am still a work in progress as I believe is true of all believers.

Recently, God put me in a situation where I really had to trust Him.  I had been having some issues with my neck and my singing voice.  I am not the greatest singer, but I was struggling just to be able to carry a note like I used to.  My passion is writing song lyrics and melodies.  When I write a song, I have to sing it to create a Demo for the singer to get an idea of what I am trying to convey in my writing.  It makes it hard to do when your voice won't coopreate.  Well, I went to my primary care physician to get referred to an Ear Nose and Throat specialist.  As the nurse was checking my vitals she noticed that my blood pressure was high.  I get a check up every year and see the Dr. throughout the year for any issues that might arise.  It was a surprise to me that my blood pressure was high.  Thinking it was related to my neck and throat issue the Dr. gave me some anti-inflamatory and some antibiotics.  Neither of the medications helped.  That weekend, I began to get light-headed and felt a pressure down my left arm.  I also remembered that I had been having issues with my hands shaking while trying to write.  Being very concerned that following Monday I called my Dr. to get back in to see him.  Well he was out sick himself that day.  I went to CareNow, an urgent care facility that I typically use more than my own Dr. because of convenience.  To make a long story shorter, they confirmed a borderline irregular heart beat and some grainy fluid in my lungs.  They referred me to a cardiologist and a pulmonologist. 

The heart issue appears to be OK.  It was my lungs that threw me for a loop.  I thought I might have walking pnuemonia, but as it turns out the Dr. found other issues going on.  I was so scared.  I took all of the necessary test that I was asked to take.  I ended up having to have a surgical biopsy on my lungs.  My biggest fear was that I had cancer.  It really made me start to think about God and how far I seemed to be from Him.  God used this issue to bring me closer to Him.  I began to get in my Word more regularly.  I stopped making excuses about being tired.  I began to appreciate my wife and kids more.  I thought that if I were to leave this place anytime soon, I did not want to do it struggling with my relationship with God or my family.

I had to trust God through my fears.  He brought me through surgery.  He is constantly growing me and drawing me closer to Him.  I love my wife more today than I did yesterday.  God showed me that she really does have my back.  That's how God caused me to trust Him more.  He is my Rock.  I couldn't make it through life without Him.

I shared this with you because I know a lot of people are where I was.  God can hold your hand and He can carry you if necessary.  You just have to place your complete trust in Him.

Proverbs 3:5-8
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
And do not lean on your own understanding.
6 In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He will make your paths straight.
7 Do not be wise in your own eyes;
Fear the LORD and turn away from evil.
8 It will be healing to your body
And refreshment to your bones.

God Bless You